Alternate Realities

I recently watched the movie "The Vow" on Valentine's Day starring Channing Tatum and Rachel Mcadams with a girl friend of mine after work. I was getting ready for such a cheesy romantic chick flick but then I was surprised at how honestly good the movie is, really crafted storytelling. The beginning brings you to the point of the present reality of the couple and then the accident happens. Its pretty good in that it does describe all the moments of "impact" as the character Leo describes it. The ending of the movie presents a reality and not your average happy ending. I really enjoyed Channing Tatum's acting and the character he played, he's unbelievably a great actor and he has so much character in the movie. You would fall in love with his character!

There were a few thoughts I had about the message of this movie, and I'm sorry if I ruin it for some of you who may not have seen it yet! But it is interesting to note that "Paige" played by Rachel Mcadams didn't remember the last four years of her life that she spent with her husband Leo. She had lost most of her short-term memory and could only remember up to the point where she left law school and made a sudden change in her life, which included following her passions to pursue art. Okay, I'll stop right there and not give away the rest of the story.

And it also made me think about the movie Sliding Doors with Gwyneth Paltrow and the idea that life can have alternate realities based upon what we decide to choose in our paths. In some far-fetched realm of higher consciousness, we can fantasize about the idea that we can live in many different ways and choose different ways of living. The sum of our experiences have made us who we are today, positive or negative. That each experience taught us an important lesson that brought us to an expanded awareness and consciousness. I'd like to think that each experience in our lives help us contribute to a higher and elevated mind state, either through works of art or a contribution to an evolving society. If you are open, aware, and carefully observing the world around you-- we can tap into these higher states of consciousness through the universal mind. It is open for anyone to tap into, but are you open? Opening up to this level of consciousness can bring about creative works of art, not just visual art, but also through writing, film, and books...

But in the end everything comes together to form the present you, that everything we do is out of love. Love and Joy are the highest form of vibration and the moment you tap into this yourself, the more the world pours love onto you! I believe the world is better when you have found the love inside of you first and are open to giving that love to the world around you. You have to give to receive. That is a universal law. And living in gratitude brings so much love into your life.

Believe in love it is a grounding force.


xoxo
Diane

Signs

A week ago I had something really interesting happen to me. I was on the phone with a good friend of mine from San Francisco and we were talking about my writing and the dream space. We got into an amazing discussion about setting the intention before going to bed as prayers, to do the work in the dream state and to figure out the things I wanted to write about with the novel I'm working on. So that when I woke up in the morning I would do the work automatically when I write. I ended up being on the phone with her for two hours and had forgotten that I had left the kettle on over the stove, I wanted to make some tea. But because I was on the phone I forgot!


I went to bed soon after the phone call and prayed. I prayed and I called in my spirit guides to help me discover new things in the dream world. I was laying in bed trying to fall asleep and suddenly I felt an energy and a buzzing go through me and my right ear. I have been aware of this buzzing and energy that seems to go through me for the last 5 years of my life. The buzzing usually comes in through my left ear and I have seen orbs along with the buzzing in clear daylight. They are so much more evident during the day and much easier to see the orbs. But sometimes I can see color at night in dim lighting. 


This time I felt like there was something different about the buzzing since it went through the right side of my body. And so I thought cool my guides heard me and my prayers because I felt them. Then I went to sleep. The kitchen is actually in a separate apartment from my bedroom and so of course leaving the kettle on the stove was something that completely evaded my mind because I was literally down the hall in separate quarters.


At about 4 am, one of my roomates knocked on my door and woke me up to tell me what had happened. The kettle burnt up and it smelled like gas in our kitchen from the fumes. I felt completely horrible about the fact that I forgot and that I could of been responsible for a bad accident. My two roomates work odd hours and had just gotten home and had caught the thing burnt up. I'm just really thankful no one got hurt.


I just can't believe I forgot. I know I am human and we make mistakes. That energy going through my right ear was completely giving me a warning about something in my physical waking world but I didn't listen. Rather I didn't understand. But now I do. I feel like sometimes things like that happen in our lives to make us understand and to differentiate between things and to really know and recognize what the messages are that are being shown to us. 


Awareness. That's what I learned. 

Divine Appointment

Divine appointment. 

What does that mean?

I asked myself that same question. I wasn't sure that I understood it the first time I heard the words. Its not something you hear everyday. I believe that there is a purpose for all the different things that happen to us, whether they may be good or bad. Positive or negative, it still serves a purpose and becomes part of a series of events that help us unlock something in our lives.

I find that when we think about something constantly in our mind, it could be something that we truly want and desire, that God or the Source of all that is does hear our prayers. I know this in my heart that we are always connected to God. It doesn't matter if you're religious or not, or what you believe in. But everyone in this world does believe in some kind of higher being and we know somewhere deep down within our soul that there is a divine presence in our lives.

One example that I recently experienced, a breakup from a recent relationship. I'm not going to go into details, let's just say that after it ended I was obviously hurt from all the emotional stuff. But it really got me thinking about all the things that I wanted in a relationship, all the things that I didn't want to compromise. I decided that I wanted to experience being in a relationship with someone who met me halfway and treated me as their equal. A balanced, serious and deep committed relationship. This is what I wanted for myself all along. I think as humans we naturally want to be in a relationship and a marriage even. There's no shame in saying what you want, own it! I want to settle down and be married someday soon!

So here I was a month and a half ago, recently broken up from a previous relationship that didn't seem to have a future. I decided that I wanted to be happy at that point, with somebody that deserved me and vice versa. Somebody who wanted the same things as I did. And as soon as I made that decision, my dreams became really intense! They showed me exactly what my unconscious desires were! I had a dream that I was in a new relationship with somebody and he told me that he loved me and that I loved him back, and I was happy! And in that same dream my ex-boyfriend showed up and I could see him from afar and only that he looked upset and miserable working on some production set. Dreams are tricky! This dream was a few days before I left for San Diego for the holidays, a week before Christmas  I traveled through Chicago on a connecting flight. This is where I experienced a Divine Appointment.

I sat waiting at the airport for two hours for my flight to San Diego and I sat next to this lovely older woman. We had made small talk about where we were from and really had an enjoyable conversation together. I had talked about my recent move to New York and told her all the things that I wanted for my career path. All the things that I hope to do this year in exploring my creativity and art, and also finishing my last year in Grad School online. She had revealed to me that she was working on her Chaplain's license. I had no idea what that was, but for the rest of us who may not know what that is-- it's a minister who works with grief counseling with families and individuals who pass away.

Just as it was time for her to board her flight, she wanted to do a small prayer of blessings. I hadn't informed her of any of my dating histories, nor did she ask if I was in a relationship, which I had no recollection of mentioning. The first thing she said in the prayer was that she hoped that I find the husband that I was looking for, that this person would be able to adapt and go with me where ever I wanted to go, intuitively she had picked up on my restless, creative, and adventurous side. (Someone that could keep up with me mentally and emotionally) And then she also said a few prayers about my career and she hoped that I would find a job that I truly enjoyed soon. Then it was over.

I asked her afterwards how she knew that I had been thinking about a relationship and wanting to be married someday soon and how I had been thinking the same thing the past few days. And that's when she said, "Divine appointment." She gave me a hug when she left and I thanked her. I soon realized after she left me there standing that God had heard my prayers and used her as a Channel to let me know that he had heard my prayers as a confirmation. That He pre-arranged this meeting and I was destined to meet this lady. Wow. The whole experience was magical. It made me feel again that things were possible through faith. We must have faith and believe in our hearts what we want in our lives will and can happen. And know that things will come together when they are ready to. I felt my heart expand that day and I felt as if nothing could ever hurt me again.

Have you ever had any Divine Appointments in your life? I'd love to hear it!



xoxo
Diane

John Cassavetes Quote

I've been exploring the idea of wanting, what I want, what do people want... hmmm. And I found this really cool quote!




“Most people don't know what they want or feel. And for everyone, myself included, It's very difficult to say what you mean when what you mean is painful. The most difficult thing in the world is to reveal yourself, to express what you have to... As an artist, I feel that we must try many things - but above all, we must dare to fail. You must have the courage to be bad - to be willing to risk everything to really express it all.” 


― John Cassavetes

Last Night's dream

Ever since I could remember as a small child waking up in the middle of the night, my dreams have always been really intense. I don't know how I have the ability to remember all my dreams but it is something that I'm really happy that I can do. Typically most people don't remember all of their dreams, if even maybe a few of their dreams.

I woke up this morning or rather in the middle of the night crying. Those are the dreams that feel so real you could of sworn you were living it. My dream was a good one but I think I cried because it was real sad. One of my cousins that I was close to passed away 2.5 years ago and since her passing, I've had many dreams of her, where she's always visiting me in my dreams and talking about things. This is the first dream I've had of her in months. The dream was as if she was still alive... like she lived through her accident and she survived but wasn't quite the same. (she died of a car accident) In my dream I was with her and she was not the same, she always had to be careful because physically she was still healing. And because of the accident she had some kind of brain damage. The dream was a little fuzzy, but I got the feeling that she was trying to tell me that she would have been miserable if she lived through it and that she was glad to have gone out of this world the way she did. And then in the dream she showed me an old man who had brain damage and developed Alzheimer's disease. And for some reason I felt like that could happen to me when I got old. Its crazy to think of things that way but maybe it was a warning. I don't know. But that is about the time I woke up and felt myself crying in bed.

I can't think of anything that has made me sad recently, only the fact that I'm out in the east coast trying to live and my whole family and everything I've know is back in Cali. I know the other night I was with a group of friends and we were watching the Pacquiao fight, it got me a little sentimental because my family and I would always get together and throw parties to watch the Pacquiao fights in San Diego. That's all.

So far I've been pretty happy, looking forward to new beginnings out here and excited about meeting new people. And really giving myself time to grow as an artist and expanding my network, and of course still doing Readings for people =). I've felt really positive the last few days, on complete energy highs and meeting really nice people everywhere I go. The crazy thing that has been happening to me lately is that I've just been knowing how and what's going to happen, I feel like I'm in the flow of things. I've always felt that things in my life have always happened through synchronicity and serendipitous events. I was at the NY Port Authority on saturday waiting for my bus back to Jersey and I just had to buy a water bottle. Without looking at the price list or thinking how much it was going to cost me, I pulled out $1.75 from my wallet and when the cashier rang me up it was the correct amount! Crazy shit like that. And meeting people twice at the same place. I recently met a lady on the plane two weeks ago while traveling to Sedona and sat next to her on the way there and saw her again a few days later on the flight back home. Yeah, it was fate I met her. Its kinda cool sometimes. I just have a feeling about things and I'm usually right about trusting my intuition. When I don't trust my intuition, I feel like things go hay wire! Ha.

Til next time.

xoxo
Diane

A Dreamer Asks: What does it mean when u dream about someone in your past that has passed away?

What does it mean when u dream about someone in your past that has passed away? i mean it felt real... it's been years but how come he popped in on my dream?

My answer:

It just means that they are visiting you. They visit to remind us of some things and also to show us that they are still with us in spirit. Depending on any dialogue that was going on between you, how you felt in the dream and what the message was. Those are some of the things I would examine and look at. It's different for everybody, often these spirits help us to see a different perspective for our lives and also most often they give us clues in our dreams and sometimes they show us on an intuitive level things that may come up in our lives in the near future. I would keep a record of them in journal and watch how the events in your daily life unfold. I often also still get dreams of my cousin who passed away almost two years ago, showing me events that will happen in a few months or situations between my family members that are just really personal and private, that I see in my dreams. It's also easier to meet up with spirits in our dreams, unbeknownst to us we meet up with these spirits on the astral plane. As human beings on this earth, we feel on a deeper level that there is a world beyond our understanding and comprehension. A world we can't easily see, we have a hard time believing this is real because it is not something that is tangible.

Aura Photos

I've never done an Aura Photo until last year, this blue one below I took last sunday the 6th of November in Sedona right before I was leaving. The other one I took a year and a half ago last April 2010. You can see the differences in the aura colors which I think is pretty amazing since we go through different periods in our lives, the aura photo is a clear indication of the lessons we are learning, etc.

What is an Aura?
An AURA is the electromagnetic energy field that surrounds, encompasses and permeates the body as well as all living things. The colors and patterns within this energy field constitute a blueprint (the results of the energy we radiate from our feelings, thoughts, and physical being). Until recently, Aura's were only seen by the special few who had a gift to see the rainbow of colors.

What are Aura photos? 

Aura photography is a visual image of how we are functioning. The technological process is complicated. The hand-shaped plates are sophisticated sensors. They measure your electromagnetic field, based on the Ayurvedic (acupressure points on the hand) system of meridians. The camera codes the energy readings into frequencies (which correspond to certain colors) and process the photograph, a computer sorts the information and prints the Aura Photograph. Read more here. You can also find what each color means on that site.

Also, energy moves from right to left. The right side is new energy coming in, the left side is old energy leaving. Energy also flows downward from the heart as the heart heals. 

You can see where the yellow and green meet in the middle is my chin, where my face is. I was surprised to find that you can barely see my face! I asked the person who read my aura photos why that is, and he said it was because I am living at a higher energy vibration that most of my aura is made of energy. The yellow above my head represents thought forms and the green around means it is transition and change and healing some of the old beliefs and thoughts I had. It makes sense since I just moved from San Francisco to the east coast, a big change! Also the blue means I'm moving into the energy of a teacher and counselor. I have been doing Clairvoyant readings for the past 2 years and not until quite recently have I realized it is something that I need to be more consistent in doing! And I realized after my Sedona trip how much I enjoy helping others. Also the white spots on the top left and right are my spirit guides in my auric field and that he also said that my connection with them is very strong.

This one was taken last April of 2010, so much more different than the top one! The orange meant that it was a highly creative moment in my life. Which was true at the time, I spent a lot of time drawing and working on my art. The red also represented vitality and tons of energy and creation. I was doing a lot of running around and doing school, working on my Dreamwalker Graphic Novel project at the time and also doing reiki sessions with a few clients, I did feel I had so much energy running through me at the time. I couldn't sit still and sleep! The green also on the right meant growth and self-healing.  Very cool to see and compare between the two! I think I'm going to do the aura photos every year! They are so much fun!