The Reasons

I often think about the reasons why I do what I do.

• Why do you do what you do?
• Thinking about the reasons daily why you do things and what you're most grateful for helps you stay grounded and focused on your goals. 
• Staying in that LOVE energy keeps you attracting things that are good for you, allowing things in your life to manifest much quicker and rapidly. 
• Letting go and allowing things to happen instead of forcing things to happen is a huge difference. 
• But also keeping in mind a certain goal and taking those necessary actions to take you there. 

I love this quote from Samuel Goldwyn,

"The harder I work, the luckier I get."

Two Wolves

Native Wisdom 

A Grandfather from the Cherokee Nation was talking with his grandson.

"A fight is going on inside me," he said to the boy.

"It is a terrible fight and it is between two wolves."

"One wolf is evil and ugly: He is anger, envy, war, greed, self-pity, sorrow, regret, guilt, resentment, inferiority, lies, false pride, superiority, selfishness and arrogance."

"The other wolf is beautiful and good: He is friendly, joyful, peace, love, hope, serenity, humility, kindness, benevolence, justice, fairness, empathy, generosity, true, compassion, gratitude, and deep VISION."

"This same fight is going on inside you, and inside every other human as well."

The grandson paused in deep reflection because of what his grandfather had just said. Then he finally cried out; "Oyee! Grandfather, which wolf will win?"

The elder Cherokee replied, "The wolf that you feed."

Unconscious Desires in Dreams

Lately all I've been thinking about these days are ideas about what a family should be like and surprised even that its the subject of a few recent dreams that I've been having! I've been unconsciously thinking too much about getting serious about my life. Every day I wake up and I think about the future I want to build and what kind of successes that I want to have in my career. This year has really brought out a lot of my introversion,  a lot of deep thinking about life in general, where I want to be creatively and professionally, and what I truly desire in my heart of hearts. There are so many things I want. And I know that since this year has started I have not wasted any time in trying to put my life back together and I've really just been going for my dreams. A lot of my time in the last couple of months have been spent in deep study (online grad studies) that I've been finishing from San Francisco. A lot of writing, in the last 2 months... I've been zoned out and trying to finish writing my first novel. It's so crazy to think that in the pursuit of exploring something creatively would bring a person to different heights. That the creative mind is far more capable than we could ever know.

I never once considered writing a career and a possibility. Every day I'm taking steps and getting closer to realizing a dream. That I could actually finish writing a novel and the possibility of getting an agent at a writing conference that I'm attending soon blows my mind. If I could do what I love creatively, I would be even happier than I am now. I'm truly happy and at peace with myself these days even though I'm so far from California, which I miss so much!

I'm still discovering parts of the story and every day something new unfolds for me as I continue to write. Its like these weird energies or inspiration muses that come to me at different times of the day and I feel the energy as it speaks and gives me ideas about what to write and how to write. Its really crazy, there are specific details that come and I know exactly where to insert it. Its the weirdest thing. I find myself going back inserting scenes here and there that I didn't even think of. That's why they say just write and through the process you'll discover many things along the way. And it's not the end of the world if you don't get it right the first time, you can always go back and edit out what you don't like. But if you don't get it out you'll reamin in a stuck energy. Also my novel writing class that I'm taking every week has been helping me out so much in constructing and building up all the different elements in a novel. This week I am around 170 pages deep into my writing and it feels so damn good!

Anyways, the dream I had two nights ago was so simple. I was in a cozy house with a family of 3, and the couple had a daughter and they invited me in to spend time with them. When they hugged they included me in their embrace and said that families are always going to be there for each other no matter. And that same morning I was looking through a few instagram feeds of people I know and follow and was really happy to see some people I knew really make a life for themselves and although life may be busy, we can ALWAYS still make time for the people that are truly important to us. And I thought about my own family in San Diego and it made me realize that I want to establish my own set of traditions, live my life the way I wanted to do with my own family someday. Too many times we follow the norm or the status quo about how we should live our lives because everyone else around us is pairing off and getting married. I want the same things too eventually, only I'm taking my sweet ass time getting there and not rushing off. What's the rush? I still want to explore ME. But that isn't to say I wouldn't be ready to settle down any time soon. I just don't want to feel pressured.

Global Soul

I love this quote from travel writer Pico Iyer, he wrote a book called The Global Soul: Jet Lag, Shopping Malls, and the Search for Home.


"The hope of a Global Soul, always, is that he can make the collection of his selves something greater than the whole; that diversity can leave him not a dissonance but a higher symphony."

I was reading an excerpt from this book for my Crossing Borders class and the topic of discussion this week was to discuss what "Home" meant for each of us. I define "Home" as being peaceful within and truly being happy wherever you are. I admit I still feel a bitter sweetness about California. I miss living in San Francisco, I miss all my friends and especially my family. But I am also glad that I am meeting so many like minded individuals out here in New York and really glad that there are others who are also on a similar path creatively and professionally. 


Since the beginning of time there have been massive migrations globally. People leaving their homeland to find more opportunities elsewhere for economic reasons. I know that's why I left California, in search of better opportunities professionally and also to meet others in the creative field. A good portion of the U.S. population is originally from a lot of different parts of the world and I know that many people also move to America for various reasons. It's become increasingly easy to move to a different place now because of technology. The advent of the internet has made it easier for people to travel and look for work elsewhere other than their homeland. 


I am a firm believer that you create your own world and CAN CHOOSE to have a positive or negative experience. It's often a lonely journey being independent and wanting to see the world and all it can offer you. Its most often the experience that makes us who we are and sometimes we have to come out of our comfort zone to experience a new way of living to help us see and understand the world around us. The more we grow and expand, our awareness also grows within us. But I think it doesn't really matter where you end up living or making a home. In the end you have to be happy and choosing to own your happiness will bring you closer to home. Sometimes we have to seek the answers within to know what we truly want.